just experienced a gush of strong wind outside my house.
the flower pot got knocked down.
i thought something happened outside my house like there were people trying to break in.
but it was just my imagination. there it was, the flower pot was lying down with some spilled soil.

just reached home, had a chat with john, ivy, jieyun and gerald.
well, didn't know john would share that much about his life which lead me to some deep thoughts.

am i just gonna go to school, day by day and pass through the motion?
do i feel satisfied enough after a whole day in school studying what you chose when you completed your O's?
what do i depend my future upon? a step-by-step basis or a long term planning?
am i relevant enough? relevant in a sense to cause a change in people's life, to create an influence?

first two days of school.

NOT BAD!

met 3 people who are steady. one of them i knew her since the time im in RP.
sarina, janice and wee fong.
they accompanied me to get a bottle of water. so sweet!! HAHA!

i'm TOUCHED!

2nd day, we went to had breakfast together. all ate waffles! (:

Back from Chong Boon Sec Sch Camp!
had a great time, ended it with a great bang and shouts!!
learnt a lot and expanded my capacity.
it's only when the body is weak, then your capacity is able to be tested.

Monday - start of year 2.

new class
new people
new friends
new modules
new challenges

NEW GROUNDS! conquer the land!

aiming to excel in my new modules even though i may have a fear in programming stuffs.
aiming for a lot more!!

i know i know.
you will all say im dead but im alive!!
yeahh! well, i'm just too busy sometimes, and when i reached home, i'll be too tired to blog!
but well i'm glad i'm blogging now! HAHA!
today, had the 1st Dev's Zone Leaders Meeting! WOO~~ awesome!
exhausted but ignited again!!
i'm ready to do more things now.
well, i'm going for a camp at Chong Boon Sec tml till sat!
then sunday i'll attend church as usual! :D
these 4 days of fun, laughter and hard work with some of the people in CK's zone! WOOO!
i'm gonna love it!

What do i see myself at the end of the year?

Will i be the same like now or even more stronger?

How will my ushers be?
-Stronger than now?
-Serving as passionate like the leaders around them?
-Will they be helpers or changing other people's lives?

How can i impact my ushers, how can i change their lives?

How can i help them rise up?

These are some things that has been wondering in my mind, can't get it off but i believe it's for a reason. If we wanna rise up, it needs to come from a heart that desires it. You gotta see that urgency and react to it. Even though it might not be as easy as it seems like saying out : "i wanna rise up", But there will be times when you go the extra mile, crossing over your convenience. But just by saying it's useless, you got to do the things that show people you want to rise up.

I remember that when i just came to usher ministry, it took me 2 mths and then i start to decide i want to rise up and excel in wherever i can. Thus, my leaders gave me things to do, opportunities in duties every week. I started to do the best, approach it with a willing heart that want to learn more, wants to grab as much as possible. Be faithful in the little things, and more shall be added unto you. I start to press in unto my leaders, like Yong Hui, Hui Tong, Ivy. I started to see how they handle things, i started to listen what they say and put into practice. It's hard, very hard. But i'll still press on. There are times when i'm disappointed in my duties, but i just review about it and stop making the same mistakes. There's times when i'm afraid but i'll just go by faith!

But for now, even though there's pressure coming in from every side, be it in ministry, cell group, finances, personal life or whatsoever. I'll still press in onto my visions, my leaders, my God! (:

Often this sentence will always come from our parents - father or mother. Even though how many times they repeatedly told you, does it really stays in your heart and really make an impact in you? Does it make that impact till you would step out and make a change in your life?

This week, i believe that the word "change" has never stop haunting me. It dawn upon me that i must start to change when i was gyming at YCK on wed. While i was gyming, the radio mentioned "think and change". Until now, it is still enclosed in the two sides of my brain.

Today, went to YMCA. Attended a talk, intially i didn't know what the speaker is gonna speak about. He spoke about Passion, and soon linked it to Change. Once again, i met my nemesis, change. Well, i'm not saying that changing one self is not important or it is evil, but some times, it might be difficult for us.

Well, i believe this year, i got to change even more from being like the past me in last year. Change in maturity, change in discipline, change in the way i present myself, change in the way i do presentations, change in many areas in my life. Like what everyone says, no one is perfect, change is the remedy!

If you start to change, surely your enviroment, where ever you're in will start to change too. People around you will start to notice you and start to get influenced by you.

I love this person who stated this.

You will never change your life until you change something you do daily.
Mike Murdock

something wrong with my rp.mail 2 weeks ago. just today i got it solved! When i went in, it was full with mails, about 75 mails in total. Thank God it wasn't during school, it wouldn't be 75, it will probably be around 200? Just found out that i need to configure my laptop again for don't know what reasons yet from Sarina who is in my class this coming sem! I'm so happy! Intially we said that we wouldn't be in the same class, cuz everytime we say that we're in the same class, in the end it turn out that we're in different classes. But this time during the holidays, we kepet quiet and see. WOW! Turn out to be really same class!! So amazing!! Anyway she is someone who i got to know when i joined cypher camp when i just entered RP. Cool right? We're in same course too! (:

Just came back from gyming with Willie and Xue En, super "suan" all over my arms. Looks like i'm gonna have a little hard time wiping my back! :D